Footsteps hitting the gravel road. Lungs inhaling fresh air. Pre-spring warm sun hitting my face. Working to clear my head.
Talking to God as I mulled over the thoughts in my head…I realize I’m afraid.
…God does not give me the spirit of this
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind
(2 Timothy 1:7)
So my fear is coming from something other than God.
Opposite of fear to me is trust so my response is instead of fearing, I need to trust God.
What does God give me?
- Sound Mind (other translations call this discipline or self-control)
So what does this mean?
In thinking through this, I’d already said I’ve learned I’m powerless, so wasn’t sure exactly how to explain how God is also giving me power. So I went to Matthew Henry’s commentary for a deeper interpretation which said,
God has not given us the spirit of fear, but the spirit of power, of courage and resolution, to meet difficulties and dangers; the spirit of love to him, which will carry us through opposition. And the spirit of a sound mind, quietness of mind. The Holy Spirit is not the author of a timid or cowardly disposition, or of slavish fears. We are likely to bear afflictions well, when we have strength and power from God to enable us to bear them.
What does this look like in my life?
To me, it’s first recognizing when I’m fearful, calling it out and choosing to surrender it to God. It’s asking God for His power and strength, daily…moment by moment…to get through the next task, step, opposition, affliction. It’s courage in moving forward in complete trust in my God whose promises have never and will never fail me. And it’s falling and getting back up when I give in to fear as God continues to create in me a better broken.