Much of my life I believed lies without realizing it…
“Hold it all together everybody needs you strong.” Somehow early on in my life I believed I wasn’t pretty enough or good enough-it was about pleasing people yet I’m thankful I also had firm convictions. Somehow I believed that my insecurity would go away when I got married…I put my security, trust, self-worth in my husband instead of my God. I believed the lies that my loved one’s choices were my fault. I lived in bondage to these lies for years.
The walls crumbled one day. Yet it would still take years before I truly understood something so incredibly important.
Powerless over my feelings of worthlessness and insecurity, and in trying to control/blame/criticize my loved one regarding his choices.
What I’ve learned
God alone created me fearfully and wonderfully…I’ve known the Bible verses in my head. I’ve been working to believe them in my heart.
He desires to take my desire to control and show me how powerless I am…How POWERFUL He is.
He had to tear down the walls of pride, selfishness, and self-righteousness in my life…bring me to the end of myself. He must increase and I must decrease.
He desires to take my insecurity and sense of worthlessness and make me secure and worthy in and through Christ alone.
At the end of the day, it comes down to one thing…Christ alone.
“I find my strength, I find my hope, I find my help, in Christ alone!
When fear assails, When darkness falls, I find my peace, in Christ alone!
I give my life, I give my all, I sing this song, to Christ alone!
The King of kings, the Lord of all, All Heaven sings, to Christ alone!
’till He returns, or calls me home, here in the power of Christ, I’ll stand,
here in the power of Christ, I’ll stand.”