Month: February 2016

Dear Heavenly Father

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…I’ve said this numerous times in my life…or “Dear Lord Jesus” or “Dear God”…an opening to prayer.  A familiar greeting such as an opening to a letter.

What I realized one day as I reflected on who my God is to me…I’m addressing God as I would in a letter…it’s just an opening greeting.

Even though my prayers often begin with thankfulness to God for who He is…I wasn’t thinking about who I was addressing in my opening line-just saying the words.

This really took me back and I spent a week reflecting on this…to think about the relationship God desires with me as His child.

It’s taking practice.  What I’m doing is taking a moment before opening in prayer to reflect on who God is to me…what God means to me…the fact that He’s right there with me in that moment and always…and then I begin to pray with the renewed head and heart knowledge of who I am talking to instead of addressing God like the opening of a letter.

Is this something you can relate to?

Frustrated

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At a red light.  I sat in the car and thought about my situation.

Finding myself frustrated with my loved one, I chose to talk to God about it.  Sharing my frustrations that the situation doesn’t seem to change or go anywhere helped me refocus on my part.

And in the stillness what I heard,

How much have you prayed today for him?

Thank you Lord for pointing me back to what’s most important!  I can’t change my situation.  I can’t change my loved one.  I can pursue him in prayer and allow You to work in Your time.  Thankful today for the refocusing of my thoughts and the truth that prayer releases frustration and my Heavenly resources to work where I can’t.

Powerless

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Much of my life I believed lies without realizing it…

“Hold it all together everybody needs you strong.”  Somehow early on in my life I believed I wasn’t pretty enough or good enough-it was about pleasing people yet I’m thankful I also had firm convictions.  Somehow I believed that my insecurity would go away when I got married…I put my security, trust, self-worth in my husband instead of my God.  I believed the lies that my loved one’s choices were my fault.  I lived in bondage to these lies for years.

The walls crumbled one day.  Yet it would still take years before I truly understood something so incredibly important.

I’m powerless.

Powerless over my feelings of worthlessness and insecurity, and in trying to control/blame/criticize my loved one regarding his choices.

What I’ve learned

God alone created me fearfully and wonderfully…I’ve known the Bible verses in my head.  I’ve been working to believe them in my heart.

He desires to take my desire to control and show me how powerless I am…How POWERFUL He is.

He had to tear down the walls of pride, selfishness, and self-righteousness in my life…bring me to the end of myself.  He must increase and I must decrease.

He desires to take my insecurity and sense of worthlessness and make me secure and worthy in and through Christ alone.

At the end of the day, it comes down to one thing…Christ alone.

“I find my strength, I find my hope, I find my help, in Christ alone!

When fear assails, When darkness falls, I find my peace, in Christ alone!

I give my life, I give my all, I sing this song, to Christ alone!

The King of kings, the Lord of all, All Heaven sings, to Christ alone!

’till He returns, or calls me home, here in the power of Christ, I’ll stand,
here in the power of Christ, I’ll stand.”